Halloween '08.

I think, after the year I had, no costume could be more perfect.

The old Olde.

I suppose there comes a time in every college students life, where, in a crowded room you take a look around and you think:

"Who the hell are you people?!"

And there I stood, second floor of an Olde duplex, in tres chic dress from American Apparel wondering just who all these people are. There once was an age when I knew everyone at a party, they were happy to see me, and my drinks could be free. Except, I'm a senior and all my friends have graduated, all these people are younger than me, and of course no one knows who I am if I won't bother talking to them.

Not saying I should, just sayin'.

I guess this means it's time to graduate.

When I'm quiet people usually thing I'm sad. And usually I am.

I think Kate Nash is my musical soul mate. It's silly but I can relate to almost every one of her songs. Plus, she's really cute. You should all listen to "Don't you want to share the guilt?" because it is a wonderful song.

This weekend was odd. One of those weekends where you walk around simply unhappy and things cheer you up to the point of becoming overwhelmed and it was just up and down all weekend. I had hair mistake 2008 on Friday but that was rectified and my hair is a dark red [again]. I saw my family, and my cousins. They are the coolest children in the universe, I only wish I could see them more.

I want to get so much accomplished with my time. I feel there is no time to do this all. Homework, reading, rehearsals, side projects. 

I don't watch tv for two reasons: A. I could be doing something more productive with that time and B. I don't ever find anything that interesting. Plus, I always forget. Which I guess could be C.

I really thought this summer and school year would be a boxed set of eras in my life but they are completely separated. School's been in for almost a month and I still do not have an excellent grasp of what is going on. But I am pretending. Well.

Today my room inspection said, "Almost failed for 5inch hookerboots."

Actually, they're 7 inches.

J'adore mullet.

I guess I have nothing of importance to say.

Since summer has been over, there haven't been as many interesting adventures with my friends. I guess that is the most important part of the summer I can safely say I miss. I miss just being around the people I love and feeling no need to entertain anybody (although I will admit just my antics did amuse people).

I talked to Lauren about this last night and I feel that this year has been acting as a conclusion to my college career. This makes sense because, duh, it is. But I feel it each and every day and I see these things concluding themselves and it is just really strange to see. Been there, done that, won't have to do that again. Everything is coming full circle.

I need to really start applying to grad schools.. once I figure out what it is I'm going to be studying. Directing? Acting? Am I going to Hawaii? If I'm lucky.

I just hope things continue to keep working themselves out.

One more year.

Mine and Lauren's friendship over four years of college, 

as told by a $3 photobooth in White Plains, NY.

I have never been so busy like this in all my life. Today, I realized that there is a difference in being busy over schoolwork and meaning crap and stuff that will shape your life. This semester I will be dealing with grad apps, senior project/production stuff, and narrowing down places I want to live in a year. This is incredibly exciting and scary all at once. I'm working like crazy, learning Francais, and trying to put a production together.

I had a meeting with my therapist today that was kind of more telling than ever, even though at the time I feel we talked about nothing of importance.

I think this semester will be interesting. At least, I hope it is.

"Uhm. Naive melody. This must be the place.

To conclude the best summer of my life, I helped put on a show in a proffesional theater, with a cast of 70 people, to a audience of 1,000+ people and an original script. The buzz of RA Vue still hasn't stopped and I am so proud. The summer went out with a bang.

I never did cut or dye my hair but I guess I will eventually. This semester will be very busy for me. I hope it's half as good as this summer at least. Since Cole has left, it seems like we all feel it. I never knew a Purchase College without at least one of the first upperclassmen [better known as icons] I met. 

"It's weird being the only upperclassmen, having no one to look up to. Because now, some freshmen are going to look up to us. And for what? All we do is drink and do nothing. Jokes on them. Then again, when we were freshmen, our icons just drank and did nothing. So I guess the joke was on us. It's a vicious circle of drinking and doing nothing."

This year should be interesting.