Well, then.

It's a shame when you're living your last semester at ungrad and you're just trying to get by.

I know I will miss this place. It's just incredibly hard to realize it when this place makes itself so hard to miss. I'm not going to miss the idiots, I'm not going to miss the assholes, and I'm not going to miss a few handful of people.

I've been very busy but I've been able to manage. I can only function when I'm overwhelmingly busy. I thought this semester was going to be a hundred times better than what it is shaping itself out to be.

I'm confused but I'm not at all. 

But I am.

Hello, world.

A week ago, I had sent in my resume to 2 internships advertisements on playbill.com on a whim. I had no real expectation on receiving an internship; I just wanted to throw something out there and see what came back. 11AM the next morning, I receive a call and an interview on Friday for an internship at stagedoorconnections.com.  On Friday, I receive that internship on the spot.

Keep in mind I still have no clue how I will manage 3 jobs, 1 internship, 1 class and a decent social life. I'm sure I will be fine.

So upon receiving this internship, I realize that this probably means I will have a job when I graduate college. It means I am really moving off this island, for good. I have completely mixed feelings but the majority of them are good. This could be it: the foot in the door. Or it won't be... Whatever it is, it pretty much just landed on my lap and I have good feelings about it.

I go back to school on Thursday? I have a lot to do.

Just crossing my fingers..

And whatever I do: keep breathing.... In.. And out...

ps. that picture was Lady GaGa and Lady Starlight. And a shout out to Fritz for Culture Shock 09 ideas.

Let's be real folks.

So I have one week remaining to my last winter break.

Apparently, I have an interview for an internship for this semester tomorrow. Hopefully this may mean a career opportunity in the future but that might be thinking too far ahead. As for now, I have to figure out my last semester of college. And how I'm going to balance time for work and some serious play. I really want to spend time with as many people as much as I can because I really don't think I'm going to be that senior that comes back every week.

Culture Shock: What do I wear? Something ultra shiny and expensive-looking? I say yes.

These days are going to fly by so fast. We have to make the best of it. Seriously.

We can be best friends forever if you recognize both ladies in the picture.

2,000 & Mine

2009 has been off to a strange start to say the least.

Let's see, started off the new year right with just Casey and a mini-keg. Spontaneously went to a party. Drank a whole friggin bunch. Woke up at 8:30AM because Casey had work, and was still drunk. After leaving her house at 11am, I met up with Lauren at Grand Central at 2. Which means I spent about 3 hours being a complete zombie in public. Exhausted and slightly hungover.

Although I believed I would come home to rest, I ended up going to the D'urso's house as soon as I got home. We were there until 8, and that's when we called it a night. Friday was spent with my uncle and at the apple store because of an accidental computer-dropping. Friday night was spent with good friends, avocados at 2am and cherry brandy in the upper west side. Saturday? Journey from uws to the si mall and back home at 4pm. Waking up to an unfamiliar scarf and McDonalds breakfast... amazing. Although, I want my old scarf back :(.

ANYWAY, I woke up SICK on Saturday. So this week will be spent writing my musical and getting ready for an audition in two weeks.

There is a lot of alcohol in this Theraflu. Or "warming" solution. Whatever.

This post is totally boring. 

2008, I'll miss you.

You were the gayest. In the best way. 

This new years will be spent with half of my 4 core. Snowstorms in the east prevent Lauren from coming down until tomorrow. This stinks..  Mostly for her because she is the one stuck in CT for New Years Eve. I leave for Portchester in the hour.

In 2009, I plan on just doing. And live.

We out.

Merry Christmas from island named after the bastard son of the king.

Did you know? Santa is from the Island of Staten as well. I met him with Samantha this morning and the guy sounded just like a native. I never knew such a generous person would have come from such a hole like this.. But lo and behold!

I am ashamed to say that I haven't had the holiday spirit this year. I don't know what it is but I've worn my Santa hat once and albeit I spent more than 16 hours in that thing - and even worke up for work in it - that's the only time I wore it. We had our annual potluck and I woke up at 6am for work wearing the dress/outfit I wore the night before. I was also a little drunk still, I think.

Remember when you first went away to college and you kept seeing people from your high school but realized it wasn't them? After time, the reverse is true. Only you also see people from your high school and it IS actually them. And you have to say hi to them, and ask them how they are doing and what are they doing with their lives now. You have to do this for everyone, even your old enemies, and after three days and about 15 people it gets tiring.

But it does feel good to see people from high school and have the same goals you had before. Nope, I did not succumb to fear of being poor.. I still want to act. You're going to business school even though you wanted to sing? I will say that is great but what I really want to say is how bad I feel for you and that I hope you do not end up an old sad person wishing they did something else with their life.

SPEAKING OF CAREER GOALS: I am applying to graduate school. HOW SCARY is that!? I had a mini-panic attack today at my baby cousin's church sing along thing. I have to prepare 4 monologues and get my headshots together all before January 10th. If u seek amy.

I do also need to work on K-Hawk: The Musical.

All said and done, Christmas is still my favorite holiday. And I need to stop procrastinating.

MWAH

There you have it, proof Santa is a guido

If you liked it then you should've put a ring on it.

Reporting from Staten Island, and I have work in Purchase in 4 hours. Could I teleport there in time?

You betcha.

I am now applying to NYU Tisch and The New School for Drama for a MFA in Acting. Wish me luck. I won't need it... I applied for acting programs 4 years ago and failed. This was because I did not want/need it enough. I need to go into it with a completelt different mindset.

January I do a 1-man-1-woman show just because I can.

Last week of the semester. Time to tell the truth.